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いらっしゃいませ☆ - hi there - page 3

Terrace House

May 19th, 2017 | Tagged: , ,

I’m totally into this show right now.

I got super bored of clothes and fashion for a long time. But I love some of the looks on this show and it’s made me think that maybe I can find a few outfits that I actually enjoy wearing. Because now I just do the best I can and I hardly ever feel that how I look represents me. And somehow that’s really important to me.


– loved her piercings



– cute behind-the-ear braid


– this outfit is one of my all-time favorites



– love this impish smile with thin, light jewelry


– didn’t notice this at first; not sure if she got this done during the show. neat location for a bigger piece. also saw that a lot of the girls wear a lot of very small, thin rings, which is really pretty. this show is now 2 years old, so i think that was part of a bigger fad that was going on then, especially the knuckle rings (not sure if that’s what it’s called?)



– a lot of her stuff was very girly: florals; lace; dresses; thin, flowy fabrics; etc. stuff i like to look at but can’t see myself wearing with any consistency. but I liked this cardigan (on her) a lot. this would be totally frumpy on me, though.



– I love the texture of this sweater, with the collared shirt and 3/4 pants. very boyish and cute. She also had a round watch with this one.




May 2017

May 19th, 2017

I’m really struggling with this blog. I actually bought another domain and posted two or three things there. I really thought I wanted another space that was separate from anyone from my past who might read this, but for some reason the other domain didn’t seem quite right and I’m back here. I don’t really know why.

I went through some rough periods, especially this winter, and so I didn’t want to share anything. I know I’ve said this but writing down negative things seems to make them stick with me longer. I don’t want my blog to be a place where all I do is complain. But maybe not writing anything negative at all isn’t right, either.

I started to have bad anxiety in October 2015 and I’ve been working through it and it’s been getting better. Sometimes it flares up and I’m not able to do much other than the bare minimum to get by. This winter was one of those times.

It only just started to look and feel like spring and then the temperature spiked and it feels like late summer. It’s overwhelming.

I wish I had the resources to make a musical scrapbook of my life. Songs take me back to a moment more precisely and immediately than anything else. I am finally going back and listening to some older music and remembering who I was, good and bad.

I am trying to be more understanding, but more selfish. Giving too much has worn me thin in many ways. I feel a strength in politely, directly, saying no.